Happy New Year!
I should have wrote that 29 days ago, but I just haven’t felt like writing anything. I haven’t had a purpose to write anything until right now. Why? It’s snowing, but that’s what it does in the state of Maine. It snows. Not only did we just get a huge storm on Tuesday, we’re supposed to get a huge storm tonight into tomorrow and I have a basketball game I have to do replay for tomorrow afternoon. I’m also hoping one of my friends comes to visit me. I haven’t seen her in person since September. I miss her. Don’t tell her that, her ego will go up and it’s just not something that needs to be shared with her.
So what have I been up to since I last wrote? Well, Christmas happened so that means we all celebrated with getting gifts from Santa but I hope what we really celebrated was Jesus’ birth. He is the reason why we’re here. Now most people I know went to a church service on Christmas eve to hear the story. However I went to my aunt’s house because that’s what I do every Christmas. This year my mom even went early so we all could actually be able to eat and do Yankee Swap pretty early. I’m actually getting ahead of myself. There were other things that happened that I’m sure you the reader who has read my previous blogs would like to know what happened.
When I went home it was a day later than I was supposed to because of a STORM. Figures you know. The next day, Saturday, was Adopt A Block at my church which we were just doing a breakfast which I showed up late, I was helping my mom open her store, and so I only got bacon bits and some eggs, but I went so I could see some of my friends. Well, after I found out it was a breakfast for appreciation, Ella’s mom came up to Rachel, Shelby and I while we were just talking. She gave me a big hug and then proceeded to invite the three of us to her house on Monday for a get together since they would be gone for a week and we wouldn’t be able to see Ella until they returned. Well, let’s just say all of our faces looked surprised. I think whatever happened back in October with Erin and I, changed all of us. No, we never expected anything to happen, but Rachel and Ella stopped talking first, then Shelby and Ella stopped talking too. Then Ella and I somehow would only talk once in a while during church but if the other two were involved she would walk away and it would just seem like I’m the only one she would talk to but the talking stopped with us too.
So getting an invitation to go to Ella’s house when we were actually not talking to her, well let’s say a huge conversation happened between the three of us talking about how we’re not sure if we should actually attend and then a little fear went through me, because I figured if Ella’s mom was going to invite us, that meant she was going to invite Erin and at that point, I was told to give her space. I had no idea what we were going to do, I technically already told Ella’s mom that I was going, so that meant I had to talk the other girls into going as well.
Sunday I stayed for both services because Madeline was home and I wanted to see her and sometimes she gets lonely during the second service plus one of the songs they sang I fell in love with it and wanted to hear it once more. “I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day” by Casting Crowns. I recommend it. Listen to it. So after the second service I decided to grow up a little and talk to Ella’s mom about Monday’s party. I just wanted to let her know that everyone in the group that she invited and was about to invite, were not talking except Rachel, Shelby and I. Well after I talked to her, I was going to get Shelby so we could bring the paint from my mom’s store to the house so it wouldn’t freeze. It was quite the workout and we were practically dead. Rachel helped at the end thankfully. But while this was all happening, Ella messaged me to talk about Monday and we moved past the whole “not talking”, she even wrote to Shelby and Rachel. Although when she saw that Shelby and I were hanging out at that precise moment, I think she felt left out, although if you can tell me of anyone who wants to go back and forth bringing paint to a truck and then driving it to a house and having to lift it downstairs then wow good for them.
That night was the Ugly Sweater Contest at youth and I think it’s because I’m a youth leader that I didn’t win but everyone told me that my sweater was the best. It had confetti, ribbon and lights on it. Yeah, I made a homemade sweater.
See it’s not that bad, but the lights I had were battery packed and I kept shedding the confetti. I really did enjoy my time while I was at this party. A lot of the youth seemed to be having fun while I was there. I’m not trying to be conceited but I really made the night more enjoyable. Also during the Yankee Swap, I started to eat the M&M’s in the present that I was opening and I did share with everyone, but no one was going to swap with me especially since most of it was almost half gone.
So Monday, it was time for the party and the three of us were still not sure whether or not we were all going. I had to wrap presents and do errands but I already said I was coming so I had to do some convincing. Also I was nervous not sure whether or not Erin was going but after having a Snapchat/Facebook conversation with her, I was talking her into going and I told her I would give her a ride home if she went. I didn’t want her to miss out on this. At one point, so she could go, I wouldn’t have backed out on going, I didn’t want her to miss out on the party. So what happened was I was giving Shelby and Erin a ride to Ella’s. Rachel has her license and she drove herself. The ride there was awkward. There was talking but more explaining of what was happening in each other’s lives instead of actually talking about the issue. What was even more awkward was the tension at Ella’s. Everyone in the that house knew Erin and I weren’t talking. The first half hour into it, I couldn’t make eye contact with her. I didn’t know how to talk to her. Somehow we needed to push past it, it was a bit strange cause Ella and her siblings, along with Rachel, Shelby and I were youth the night before so we talked about that and Erin looked like she felt left out. I don’t know how it happened but I was sitting in between Ella and Shelby and then Erin was right next to me. At that point, we had to talk to each other. It went smoothly after that, we played Pictionary with Ella’s dad and it just got weird. Finally I made eye contact with the ones I was driving with and we were all ready to go. Rachel’s car wasn’t working so that took a few minutes to go. The ride home, I wasn’t sure how the 15 minutes were going to pass but when Erin asked if I wanted to hang out again and we actually talked about what was going on, if everything was better and she said yes, I thought that was fine. Although the talking was more her talking about what was going on for her and me listening, so I don’t know if she already understood what was going on with me. But I left it at that. So now you the reader understand that Erin and I talked after that, are we better? A bit, we haven’t talked since. I even apologized to Ella’s mom about the tension and she didn’t mind.
Even though, I just had to write about all of that, this new year is going to be a bit different, I shouldn’t have vented about that but I just needed to do it once more and now I can just move forward. I’m two or more hours away from all of those girls, I talk to Shelby daily. The other ones, once in a while. One of them not as much, she’s back in school and with other friends, but the hurt of not talking is starting to get better, I think I’ll always miss not being able to talk to her, but maybe space is still something that needs to happen and I’ll give space.
So Christmas was great, I received a lot of Don’t Stop Believing items, Captain America shirts, UMaine apparel, a 48″ flat screen TV, clothes, and Apple TV. Let’s just say I was very excited about everything I got. Both TV’s are being put to use.
I rung the New Year in with friends, we were “Toasting in the New Year” which meant we ate French Toast and Bacon. There’s no better way than hanging out with friends and then we went to Freeport which was a lot of fun especially sine I was able to meet up with Liz.
I’ve also been very busy with UMaine games, I’m a huge fan of the Women’s Basketball, they’re doing an amazing job this year One of my tweets were even favorited by my favorite girls basketball team and I was able to get a picture with two of the girls.
I’m very thrilled about my job. I say it a lot, I love my job. I’m sadden by the fact that in March I will have to get another job so I’ll have more hours but I’m still happy and that’s all that matters.
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