Grad Party Week

I think the only outcome I didn’t expect to happen out of a week with a friend is awkward.

On Tuesday, I picked her up at the airport. It was fine while we were still in town but when we got on the highway, it’s like you just forced two random people together and made them hang out for an hour and a half. We listened to music but we didn’t do anything else. She saw my mom when we got into my hometown. We went to VBS, Madeline came over that night which was a lot of fun and I thought Natalie enjoyed it which she did. Wednesday was rain and allergies came. I was sick and I still did things, we saw a friend at her work and we really didn’t do much, the TV was on for the World Cup most of the time. I went to VBS alone that night and two friends came over. We hung out and I felt bad thinking she was having a bad time because we brought up the fun times my two friends and I did before. Thursday came. Allergies got worse. I couldn’t breathe, we left work early because of it. I slept while she watched TV, she said we should go for a walk and but I said no. Then I got up to go get badminton and decided to wash my car instead. I didn’t tell her. I was going to spray the window instead, but chickened out and she came and watched me. It was weird. I wasn’t mad. We washed my car once before, it was kind of something we did. She helped. A friend of hers called me because this was the only time she would see Natalie. We met up with them. Natalie looked normal with them, and I couldn’t understand how that worked out. VBS, still went alone. I was able to actually be myself without feeling weird like I did Tuesday night. Friends came over afterwards. I still felt extremely awful about it, but what else could I do? I don’t want to sound bad about this, but these friends are around more.

Friday came which meant Nevora and Liz would be there. It also meant I would be on the radio. Nevora and Natalie came with me and then listened to it. I actually was a bit jealous thinking Natalie liked hanging out with Nevora more, they looked more comfortable with each other than we actually did. I didn’t find out until later that Natalie thought the same thing. Because of the stress of the party I wasn’t acting like myself anyway and I didn’t want to be a downer so I left them alone when they made the cookies. What else was I supposed to do? I’m a terrible cook too. Nevora fell asleep right before Liz showed up. I think Liz made it better. The awkwardness was there but not as bad, especially since we went to go get Coconut Cream Pie at 11:30 at night. It’s a tradition.

Saturday we went to pick up Madeline to go to the Amish Store, it was fun, I sort of stuck with Madeline more so she wouldn’t feel left out. We took pictures in lupines. It was fun. Dropped Madeline off so she could practice violin. Ate food, then went to get ice cream where Madeline met us. It was my Fun Girl’s Day and it was just the five of us. I remembered it was my cousin’s birthday and went to visit family real quick before heading out to the lake. I got tackled. It was cloudy so not that great out to go swimming. Instead we hung out inside. I didn’t find it too awful doing that especially since the topic of hot celebrity men came up as the main conversation. It actually was pretty funny because this is sort of a normal conversation that Nevora and I have, yet she fell asleep. The big argument was Chris Hemsworth vs Liam Hemsworth. Thor or Gale? Side note, did you know that Liam Hemsworth was up for the part of Thor but then his brother also tried out and they chose him instead. Way hotter than Liam could be. Plus I can’t picture Liam with long hair. After that Madeline and I went to her house to pick up The Lucky One which has my number 1 guy, Zac Efron. I think the best part of it was the commentary. Nevora and I normally do comment during this type of movie if it involves a hot guy in it. So seeing my friends who I wouldn’t act like that in front of face was pretty great. A lot of chuckles and giggles.

Then my mom, Allie my sister, and Dave showed up and they decided to watch Thor which Madeline who said she only wanted to take a ten minute nap took a 40 minute nap during. Along with Natalie and myself. I didn’t mean to but it was just the exhaustion of the week that took over. Then we watched White House Down. Channing Tatum. Hello, another cute guy. After the movie was over we all went home, everyone was pretty tired so we just went to sleep.

Sunday. Nevora had to leave early because her husband was sick. I felt bad because it was my family party and she wanted to stay until Monday. So Liz, Natalie and I went to church early at 8:30. I got quite a few comments on my outfit. I wore the same out fit to my graduation. It was a good service. I didn’t have to do anything technical except chose the color for the lighting. Afterwards we went home to change for the party. The party was actually pretty good, I stuck with the girls most of the time. Of course I was nice and did hang out with family. My Facebook got hacked, I believe the quote they used was, “Tall men are my fav” I don’t talk like that so I hoped my friends on Facebook knew that. It poured, that didn’t make my day any better. The stress of having a party can get to you especially when told to just go back and forth. Before Liz had to head home, we thankfully went tubing. I enjoyed a lot and I think she did, but she screamed so much. You would think that I turned awkward after this, not yet, I still had family around so I couldn’t. I showed off my slideshow that I worked so hard on, my aunts really liked it. Natalie and I left, we took food, I thanked my guests who were still there, and we went into town. We went to youth and got there right when it was time for the not being rude but preaching part. I was okay in a way about it, but I still thought some fun would happen. I was freezing and when we were praying, I seriously “cuddled” up to Natalie who was on my lap because the ground was wet from rain and no more chairs, FYI we were outside. She found it funny. I hope it wasn’t too bad.

We headed back out to camp for more food and on the way I decided to say to her: you’ve changed. I don’t know exactly what brought it on but I probably should have stuck my foot in my mouth. Because after that she kept asking how and I couldn’t answer. So after leaving camp, we talked for a little while and then she brought up again. I couldn’t help but answer, I don’t remember what exactly I said but it went with the time apart and distance. We haven’t seen each other for a year. I found out a lot during that year. I don’t want this to sound horrible but this pretty much showed why we were awkward. I didn’t act the same way in front of her because I don’t talk to her like I used to. We were super close. I think 2012 defined our friendship and Natalie leaving in 2013 just changed it. It went from seeing her every month to having to talk through just a phone by text or FaceTime or a phone call which we don’t like. She told me that she saw in the way that I acted with Nevora that I talked to her a lot more than Natalie. Is it true? Yes, I really do talk to Nevora everyday sort of. We can really talk about anything and I don’t push her away or stop talking to her to see if I can like I have with Natalie. I think in a way of me pushing Natalie away is just to see if she would bring herself back. I know sounds terrible but this is a blog where I can speak freely and I don’t want to publish any of this on my Facebook where anyone else can see it. Anyway, Sunday night just showed us both that we became awkward. We took several steps back and we were the 2010 versions of us. I told her that since she moved, it did change us.

On a very random and I’m not trying to offend anyone especially whoever is reading this because I do have friends who read this. A common joke between Nevora and I, is that we talk about my wedding. I have no boyfriend so this is just a big dream of what I wish my wedding could be like. Nevora has already told me she is the wedding planner and I have like 6 now. So at the time of when we decided that, we weren’t as close, I mean she came over everyday but we still didn’t hit the spot in our friendship where we became better friends. I think when the semester she stayed with me a lot, we got closer. I enjoyed a lot. It was great. Anyway, so I have told her who my bridesmaids were. My maid of honor of course is my sister, she had that position for a long time and no one gets it but her. I thought for sure Natalie and Liz, which I have told Natalie and I think Liz. Still didn’t know about who else to put in there because I have a lot of friends and I wasn’t sure who else I wanted, although I’ve got a lot of time to figure that out. Sunday night that conversation came up and it definitely made us chuckle a little. Because who plans their wedding so early? Every girl. Every normal girl. Every girl who played with Barbies. Natalie told me when she gets married I would be a bridesmaid. Maybe she said that just to be nice? I don’t know but I felt honored. So that night, I was thinking about my bridesmaids and I know now that Nevora would definitely be one. She can be a wedding planner and bridesmaid, which they go together. I told Natalie about my sister being my maid of honor and how I just figured because she’s my sister that she automatically gets the position, I don’t know if I get it for her, I don’t know if I’ll ever be a maid of honor. Would love to be one but I don’t know for who. Just because I think my sister should get that position doesn’t mean I haven’t thought of what friend may get it. This is where I could offend, I’m not trying to I just am making a small point. At the time, I figured Natalie just because she was who I was the closest to out of my friends. I told her everything and I talked to her everyday and I just loved having her as a friend, since she talked to me the same way. And now Sunday night, with her sitting next to me hearing what I said that she would have been my maid of honor. I saw her face when she realized that someone else could take that place. But no, I responded back saying no matter what, you still would. I think at that moment, we both realized just due to time and distance, we still are the same people that we were a year ago. We ended the conversation and went to bed.

Monday. The last day she would be in town. We actually acted like ourselves. We played games. Laughed. Joked about the night before. And did manual labor which included bringing tons of paint up from the basement to my mom’s store. What a great time. We complained once or twice, okay a few times. Then we asked a few friends of mine to go out to the lake with us and then we tried to go swimming. Ha, we went tubing. One friend and I had a very nice ride, a little screams here or there, but not to shabby. Haha. I was shocked beyond shocked that Natalie wanted to go and oh my word, it was the best time. I could not stop laughing. First we both got on, she started to chicken out especially since this was a non tip ride which meant she did not want to get fully wet. but the second we took off we went under the tube just went under and we still hung on, but ah man the laughs that came out. She screamed so much that I had to just laugh it. A couple turns but the best one was the last one cause she was barely on the tube and I was trying so hard to just stay on that I was climbing back to my side but something happened and I had to let go. So when I resurfaced she was looking at me going, “I wanted a non tip ride.” Hahahahaha. We started swimming back to the boat just laughing. When the other girls went, they had it worse. Tube kept going under and then the final time for them was flying off. We had a bonfire with s’mores. More henna tattoos. And then it was time for bed.

Tuesday, we acted normal on the ride back. I was sad at that point having to say bye to her. When we got to the airport I just didn’t want to say bye.

Overall the grad party was an adventure of awkwardness and loving friends who just were amazing. I definitely would like to have another reunion this summer, before work starts up fully for Natalie, Nevora and I. Liz is always working so I know that if I plan a good weekend it could possibly be in Bangor which I should do. I should base a weekend in Bangor before everyone goes back to a busy life. Note to self: start planning.